Letters From Home

My dearest son it's almost June,
I hope this letter catches up with you
and finds you well.
It's been dry but they're callin for rain,
and every thing is the same ol' same in Johnsonville.
Your stubburn old daddy ain't said too much,
but I'm sure you know he sends his love.
And she goes on in a letter from home

CHORUS
I hold it up and show my buddies,
like we aint scared and our boots ain't muddy.
And they all laugh like there's somethin' funny
'bout the way I talk when I say"Mamma sends her best ya'll.
"I fold it up and put it in my shirt,
pick up my gun and get back to work.
And it keeps me drivin' on...
waitin' onletters from home.

My dearest love it's almost dawn,
I've been layin' here all night long
wonderin' where you might be.
I saw your Mamma and I showed her the ring
Man on the television said something
so I couldn't sleep.But I'll be all right,
I'm just missin' you,
and this is me kissin' you...
X's and O's in a letter from home.

I hold it up and show my buddies,
like we ain't scared and our boots ain't muddy.
And they all laugh cause she calls me honey
but they take it hard cause
I don't read the good parts.
I fold up and put it in my shirt,
pick up my gun and get back to work.
And it keeps me drivin' on...
waitin' on letters from home.

Dear son, I know I ain't written,
but sittin' here tonight alone in the kitchen,
it occurs to me...I might not have said it
so I'll say it now, "Son, you make me proud."

I hold it up and show my buddies,
like we aint scared and our boots aint muddy.
But no one laughs, 'cause there aint nothin' funny when a soldier cries...
And I just wipe my eyes.
I fold it up and put it in my shirt,
pick up my gun and get back to work.
And it keeps me drivin' on...
waitin' on, letters from home.

long day? short day

It was a weird day. I only had one dream that was strange.
It was the weekend and I was getting ready to go to my parents house. I heard the doorbell and it was Will. He was home on a "day pass" and for some reason his base was only 1 1/2 hours away, so he came home. I acted like he did it all of the time, but my mind was racing as was my heart. I was so excited to see him. Then we went for ice cream and ran into an old friend of mine who I know is in Iraq. When I saw him we started talking. Vicente was wearing HIGH HEELS!

So strange. I wish only in my dream that I had acted as happy to see Will as I felt in my dream! I wonder if I will be able to show him how much I missed him when he gets off of the plane. I know I am not good at it, but I want to show him how happy I am to see him. I know that Rhayn will run up to him and hug him. I just hope I don't cry too much!

I am such a silly person. There is this John Michael Montgomery song that kills me, "Letters from Home" so I found the video online and watched it and bawled. Then I figured that while I was crying I would watch the video for "A Little Girl" man it made me bawl, too!
I am going to post it in another one. Its such a powerful song.

There is another song that gets me. Darryl Worley "Awful, beautiful Life" it has this one line in it We said a prayer for Cousin Michael in Iraq We're all aware that he may never make it back We talked about the way we missed his stupid jokes And how he loved to be a soldier more than most and I hear that line and I cry. I feel so afraid that my brother won't come home. OR that my husband will be deployed after he gets home and he may never come home. It scares me so much to think that I could lose people who are so near to me. I have never dealt w/ death. Well my grandpa's both died but I was like 8. That was a long time ago. Its such a lonely feeling to wonder and worry if your family member is coming home. I never really thought I would have to feel this way. I am going to go and stop crying because its causing me to have a headache. I think I've cried more in the last few months than I have in my whole life.