Seething

Ugh... I keep thinking that "I will feel better if..." but none of the things I have tried have worked. I slept awfully last night, Rhayn doesn't feel well. She woke up at 2 am and climbed in bed with me because her head and stomach hurt. It took me a long time to fall back to sleep after that. Then I awoke every few hours because I needed to pee.

Today I feel like I am going to lose it. By it, I mean my sanity. I want to go to bed, just to be alone. I had things I wanted to accomplish this afternoon, and I didn't do any of it. I did however make a pumpkin pie and some salsa. I meant to get the deep freezer cleaned out a little in anticipation of tomorrow's cook-a-thon. I want it to be defrosted, too, but that is so NOT happening.

Also, today was handwork and I love hanging out with most of those ladies, but there is one that was just on my very last nerve today. I had to stop myself from saying anything snarky/rude to her. (See Amanda, I have turned into a grumpy pregnant woman! I hate it.) She kept saying things that normally roll off my back but today it was like little jabs at me, over and over. At least she didn't once talk about how I "don't even look pregnant at all." Because I was not going to take that sitting down. (Ha ha, I would I am not big on confrontation, but I would have seethed in my chair while sewing the doll head I was working on.) I get that by 18 weeks her belly was huge, but like my awesome cousin, Hairball, she is shorter and there is nowhere for her uterus to go but out. I am tall, and I have a long torso, it takes longer for me to show. OK?!

I hope that I feel better after I sleep tonight. I don't want to be mean to the wonderful ladies at the cook-a-thon. I am so grateful that they have included me in their little group.

Ugh, Rhayn just asked me "What's for dinner?" and I have to hold my tongue to avoid biting her head off about the simple question. I do not like myself very much at this moment. So excuse me whilst I slap myself into a better mood.