Its pretty obvious that I am sitting around twiddling my thumbs hoping to go into labor, isn't it? I have posted more this week than I have in a long time.
This morning I had a HUGE meltdown. I went upstairs to use my sewing machine, but couldn't really get to it. So I yelled at the girls to clean up. I tried to use it while they cleaned. Ha. Instead I came downstairs and cried for 45 minutes. I listened to them get mad at each other, I ignored it all and sat outside crying.
When I finally pulled myself together I took twenty minutes and picked up downstairs, vacuumed the carpets and swept the kitchen. It made me feel better, but I still want to be alone to watch really craptacular television shows. Only Rhayn is 10 and very aware and asks a lot of questions while we watch shows. So I can't just immerse myself in the tripe that I want to watch.
Did I mention its getting hot out? We've been in the upper 80s and low 90s the past few days. Its hot, and I/we don't want to turn on the air conditioner just yet. Its pretty nice outside, but it gets warm inside.
Also my head hurts from crying this morning. It hurt before and I knew that losing it like that was only going to make it worse. Its not at all surprising that it hurts. It is surprising that I didn't take a nap today. I needed one. So why didn't I make myself lay down? I have no idea. I just didn't. I guess I could nap now, maybe I will. I just need to put something on the tv that isn't at all interesting.
3 comments:
Come on baby!
Aww you are totally justified in having one of those days. Not long now!
I watched 2 episodes of Real Housewives of Miami(totally terrible), some random soap opera on BET(totally terrible), a show on E! about this chick named Aubrey who used to be on Making the Band with P. Diddy(totally terrible) and now I'm forcing myself to get moving. So don't worry my friend I have watched enough trash for you this AM - I am sending you my drained brain to substitute for yours.
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