Its pretty obvious that I am sitting around twiddling my thumbs hoping to go into labor, isn't it? I have posted more this week than I have in a long time.
This morning I had a HUGE meltdown. I went upstairs to use my sewing machine, but couldn't really get to it. So I yelled at the girls to clean up. I tried to use it while they cleaned. Ha. Instead I came downstairs and cried for 45 minutes. I listened to them get mad at each other, I ignored it all and sat outside crying.
When I finally pulled myself together I took twenty minutes and picked up downstairs, vacuumed the carpets and swept the kitchen. It made me feel better, but I still want to be alone to watch really craptacular television shows. Only Rhayn is 10 and very aware and asks a lot of questions while we watch shows. So I can't just immerse myself in the tripe that I want to watch.
Did I mention its getting hot out? We've been in the upper 80s and low 90s the past few days. Its hot, and I/we don't want to turn on the air conditioner just yet. Its pretty nice outside, but it gets warm inside.
Also my head hurts from crying this morning. It hurt before and I knew that losing it like that was only going to make it worse. Its not at all surprising that it hurts. It is surprising that I didn't take a nap today. I needed one. So why didn't I make myself lay down? I have no idea. I just didn't. I guess I could nap now, maybe I will. I just need to put something on the tv that isn't at all interesting.