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Another "Mom of the Year" award goes to me.

What is wrong with me?

When I was pregnant a few weeks ago we told the girls. Rhayn was really excited. Apparently when I lost the baby I was so lost in my own world that I NEVER told her what happened. That was like three weeks ago, too.

She wrote about the baby in her journal at school recently and her teacher came up to congratulate me today. (Awkward!) So on the way home, in front of her best friend (whose mom DID explain to him what happened), I had to explain to her that "No we weren't joking about the baby, it just had something wrong with it, and wouldn't have been able to survive outside of the womb."

I have this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I have totally failed both of my girls this week.

6 comments:

Everyday Mom Designs said...

Aww hun.. It's okay... I'm sorry it happened and it must have been hard for everyone involved, but this time will past and maybe next week will be better.. Keep your head up.

Mo said...

You haven't failed them, just proved all over again you are a human being. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Hugs. x

Cornfed Princess said...

Thank goodness you're not perfect! Listen my friend, you are a beautiful soul and a fabulous momma. So you're not perfect, merely human. And you love your babies that's all that matters.

bodaat said...

i don't think Mo could have said it any better. it hasn't been an easy 3 weeks and it's very understandable that the message didn't get passed through. don't be too tough on yourself. -x-

Amie said...

It was a lot to deal with, you can't cover it all sometimes. I'm sure it's been very hard on everyone, and she, like you, will need some time to heal. And now you'll be in a better position to help her hopefully.

Amanda said...

Oh my god, you poor thing! I am so sorry that happened to you. This time will pass. Leave space in your heart to forgive yourself. You are loved.

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