It bubbles up, starting slowly. Frustration. Anger. Madness. I feel like the house is out of control. Nothing is where it should be. Nothing is what is should be. I lose track of things. I lose track of thoughts. I stew, and seethe. I am in my head, angry. I am in my head, holding in the yelling.
It is that time again, my body has ovulated, my hormones are changing. I want to scream. I want to be alone. I want to be surrounded by people. I want to be out. I want to be home on the couch. I want sanity. I do not want this feeling- this helpless, overwhelmed feeling.
And I remember that I didn't take the vitamins today. And that must be why I feel so out of control, and on a whirlwind ride of emotions.