DH asked me if I am going to be baby obsessed when this baby is born... Um- hello.... I wasnt' BABY OBSESSED until Rhayn was nearly 3 yrs old. I remember having the miscarriage when she was nearly 18 months and being saddened BUT feeling relieved at the same time. HE doesn't know that, because I never told him how I felt about it.
I was depressed and in pain, so HE assumes that I was just sad about the baby loss. I was- but I was also sad because I felt that way... I felt like an ass because I felt that way....

ARGH.

He also lifted my shirt and made a HORRIBLE face and said "so it begins." like my belly (which i think is beautiful) is a horror. I almost started crying. I had to leave the room! I can NOT believe how mean that was! I know he didn't mean it to sound like it did...

Earlier he had said somehting rude, and I said "can't you say anything nice to or about me?"
(silience for nearly 2 minutes is it that hard?)
"Um... you made me salmon for dinner."
Yeah- that is "nice" i wanted to hear something about me looking nice, or anything about that... but grr... no "you made me dinner" is the only NICE thing he could say.

I shouldn't expect more, I don't know why i was, but dang I wanted NO NEEDED a compliment- especially after that FACE he made when he looked at the belly. I get that he feels weird about it. I just wanted him to BE NICE> i needed it last night...