Why do I feel so anxious? I mean, shouldn't I be relaxing while Will is here? Taking a deep breath and enjoying his company fully? Instead I feel this tightness in my chest, and I have stop and make myself take those deep breaths, remind myself to calm down.
Am I so used to running on full power that it feels impossible to really relax. I feel like a wire strung so tightly that it might just spring at any moment. My heart beats fast, my breaths are shallow, I feel shaky.
I need a good mantra to repeat as I try to calm myself. Any suggestions? Any ideas on some meditation I could repeat in my head or out loud as I breath deep breaths? DO you do something like that? What words/phrases help you when you feel like the world is against you?