Ugh

Well tomorrow Will goes back to work. I am going to miss him being here most of the time, but...

I am looking forward to trying to get into a somewhat normal routine. I can't imagine what it would be like if he were really going to be home for 10 more weeks (I seriously think I would go insane!) It isn't like he has been a big help to ME since he's been home. He has been getting house projects done. I am thankful that those things are done... I just wish he had been more understanding to my needs. He tried, don't get me wrong, but with his dad here, he had to take care of him. It has just been miserable time!

Ok, I am feeling really hormonal today. Or upset or seomthing, because I want only to complain about him, but at the same time, I do not really want him to go back to work! (AT ALL!) This will all pass, right? I thought I was getting enough sleep, but at the same time, I know I am not. I want to spend some time with him alone, after Rhayn goes to bed, but I can't keep my eyes open. Plus Gwennie isn't cooperative then, she wants a nip in her mouth!

I think I'll just cry a little, then I will feel better. I know I did last night, its not like depression. I am feeling a tiny bit overwhelmed, with the thought of taking care of Gwen, Rhayn, Will and finally me. I mean, I was thinking about having to take the truck for an oil change (yes, Will can do it, but at $20 a change and it means he gets to spend that hour with us instead- its worth it!) and I can't imagine taking it to get it changed and havingthe 2 kids. Total Freak out moment, luckily, Will is going to take it in. I can rest a little easier now.

I know it will all work out, its going to be ok. Lots of people do it, with lots more kids than 2. So it will be OK.



*the man next to me in the pic in the previous post is my father in law.