Its been a while since I felt this sort of sadness associated with May. But it is back.
Really I have no idea exactly what is wrong. It's like, walking around feeling like I forgot something (and I have, like my keys in the lock of the front door). Walking around with a huge rock in the pit of my stomach.
I am trying to function through, trying to remain happy and smile and be a nice person. But its all fake, all a lie.
And why am I so sad?