I'm in a funk. I need to snap out of it. There is no reason for me to be such a mess, emotionally. But I don't feel happy.
Though yesterday I got quite a kick out of a male pigeon who was showing off for a lady pigeon and ran into a chair during his "fancy dance". It felt weird to laugh at that pigeon (but I did oh I did). I don't think I am laughing enough. I might need comic relief more than anything else.
I am pretty sure this depression/funk is caused by being post partum/a lack of sleep/adjusting to life as a mom of three (who knew that would be so hard?). Natalie is a good sleeper at night, usually. She sleeps when its dark and I am thankful for that. I can't imagine getting LESS sleep than I am currently getting.
So what do I do? Wait it out? Hope it gets better? Find a way to add a few hours to every day? MAKE myself nap (which requires being home)? Ask for help from others (this is hard for me)? I need suggestions that will help me feel better.
I could go on and on about all of this, but I feel zombie-like and I am sure none of this even makes sense at the moment. Bleh.
This all made Mother's Day awful. I was in the depths of this funk and really should have been smacked around a little. Too many tears and not enough enjoyment. I hate how I felt yesterday, and how I still feel today. I hate that I feel miserable but am not sure how to "get out of it".