I'm in a funk. I need to snap out of it. There is no reason for me to be such a mess, emotionally. But I don't feel happy.
Though yesterday I got quite a kick out of a male pigeon who was showing off for a lady pigeon and ran into a chair during his "fancy dance". It felt weird to laugh at that pigeon (but I did oh I did). I don't think I am laughing enough. I might need comic relief more than anything else.
I am pretty sure this depression/funk is caused by being post partum/a lack of sleep/adjusting to life as a mom of three (who knew that would be so hard?). Natalie is a good sleeper at night, usually. She sleeps when its dark and I am thankful for that. I can't imagine getting LESS sleep than I am currently getting.
So what do I do? Wait it out? Hope it gets better? Find a way to add a few hours to every day? MAKE myself nap (which requires being home)? Ask for help from others (this is hard for me)? I need suggestions that will help me feel better.
I could go on and on about all of this, but I feel zombie-like and I am sure none of this even makes sense at the moment. Bleh.
This all made Mother's Day awful. I was in the depths of this funk and really should have been smacked around a little. Too many tears and not enough enjoyment. I hate how I felt yesterday, and how I still feel today. I hate that I feel miserable but am not sure how to "get out of it".
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Maybe some hormone balance. Ask your lady doctor for advice on how to balance out. I know you recently had a baby but there should still be some balance. Also need so laugh as stupid cousin time. We need to set up some time. BTW are you going to show low this weekend. we are tying to make sure there are enough beds.
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