Today I really missed Will. You see, I had to take his (our) truck in for maintenance because the "Check Engine" light was on. Is taking it in a big deal? No. Why did it make me miss him more? Because I had to call for help*.
The mechanic is about four miles from my house. I took the truck in, and they said it would most likely be all day. I didn't want to be stuck four miles from my house with a three year old in the 110 degree summer. I had to call a friend to come get us. I hadn't even thought about what we would do while the truck was being worked on. Rhayn had camp and was taken care of, but Gwennie? She, as usual, was stuck with me.
My friend picked us up, and drove us to the house. I was so grateful that I have people that I can rely on. Then when the mechanic called to tell me what the damage was ($260 for an oil change, new battery, air filter, vacuum hose, as well as a few other little things) I had to figure out how to get back to the mechanic.
Luckily a second friend was able to take me there, while Rhayn went to her house to play.
If Will were home, we would have had an easier time of it, he and I would have driven separate cars there to drop it off, and then we would have gone together back. I am thankful that the mechanic is good, and not too pricey, and also? Honest. They told me that fixing the oil leak in my car was not worth it. Some mechanics would have charged outrageous amounts of money for something that will never really be fixed. Also I have a few other people who go there and all have lots of nice things to say about them. It makes me feel good, and safe trusting them with my vehicles since I don't have a second half to ask about it.
But I wish he was home, because I am tired of doing it alone. Even though I know I can... I'd rather not have to anymore.
*I have had to ask for help more lately, and its something I really hate to do. I don't know if its because the longer he is gone the more I need help, or if its because I realize I do have people who can help. Or maybe its because I am just tired. It has gotten easier to ask for help, but I still try to do everything on my own first.