Its raining, whoo hoo. After threatening all day yesterday and today, looking like it would, it finally has! YEAH! Rhayn was outside a little while ago and said it smelled like rain. Ah- rain in the desert, such a comforting smell!
Gwen is being a bit of a fussy pants today. She had her very first bath this morning (her lovely double chin was getting stinky...) so maybe that was what made her so fussy? I wouldn't think so, but something did!
I was looking at last months array of pictures. Those final days of my pregnancy, the hugeness of my belly. It didn't seem that big when I was wearing it! But the pictures really show that I was bigger then I felt! I guess that is really a good thing. I feel a little sad looking at those pictures. I loved pregnancy again, although this time it was wrought with so much more fear than last time. I am very glad to not be pregnant anymore, I am so happy to hold my little Gwen, to nurse her, to rock her, to look at her and get to know her. I love that little bug! But its sad at the same time.
I must admit, that I really not ready to look back at those pictures, or even read my past blog posts. I knew it, so why did I? I was feeling brave I think! I wonder when I will feel better looking at them, I have looked back in my mind. I have pondered that last week or so. What is different about looking at the pictures? What is different about reading my words? I don't know.