I have finally come to some decisions. They were hard to do, but I think this is best for me, for Will and for our family.
The only way to GUARANTEE that Will can be here for the birth is to take steps that I was originally not willing to take.
We have decided to induce labor, we will try rupturing membranes at home, at 2 am. The midwife and I are going to walk and do everything we can to get labor started and going good. If by 6:30 am nothing is happening, then we are going to the hospital.
I was against all of this, but as the days came closer and Will's Army drill looms on the horizon... We had to decide what to do.
This is funny, because I feel more at peace about all of this than I have in weeks. I don't know if its because I now KNOW that Will is going to be there, or if its just the right decision and God is letting me know. Maybe this was the push I needed to really allow myself to let go, I really don't know, the biggest thing is that I am ready, and calm. Now if I can get a little sleep.
I feel at peace. Calm. Better. Finally.
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I'm happy that you feel so good about it all, that will make for a happy birthing experience no matter where it happens. I'm glad that Will will be there for it. It will be such a great thing for both of you to welcome your little girl into your family. Love you!
Thanks, it is a good feeling, because all week I have felt "unsettled" maybe its best if she is born in the hospital... maybe this little buggaboo is a planner and needed her day "planned out." Or maybe its just something that Will and I needed to come to together.
The only thing I really know is that I am so ready for her! And SO excited and nervous at the same time.
I really hope I can get a little sleep tonight! Because I didn't have any sleep for like a few days before and after Rhayn's birth.
I want to be more alert for this one AND no epidural, and I think Will is going to be good support for that.
That will be great to have Will there with you. Birth is a beautiful experience that you need to be together for no matter where it happens. We'll be excited to have that new little girl in the family. Love ya!!
Yes, I think that him not being there for Rhayn's made it hard for us. But since we weren't really on speaking terms... well. I just really NEED him there this time!
I will probably have my mom post a pic of her as soon as she can! (since mom is staying at my house to watch Rhayn.)
I'm praying for a peaceful entrance into the world for Gwennie, little intervention and quick delivery for you.
I know exactly how you feel about wanting Will there - Blaine was born about 11 hours before John left on a plane for Vietnam. That was a very scary time for me. Love ya and can't wait to see you get some pictures posted of that little girl.
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